I am in love {meet my baby boy, Felix} + a question for you to consider

 It is with such pleasure, pride, and joy that I am writing to you today to share the news about my baby boy, Felix Gustav Marlow Zwickson. He was born on June 8th at 7lbs 11oz and 21 inches. 

Felix; 1 week 

Felix; 1 week 

Felix is exactly 4 weeks and 1 day old today and is growing so fast and evolving so beautifully. I cannot believe it has already been four weeks since I gave birth to him, which itself was a wild and humbling experience that went completely different from what we had planned (a topic I will share more about another time).

Besides his little body growing so fast and his eyes making more and more contact, I can also swear that he is already trying to smile at his daddy and me; albeit his "smiling muscles" work better on one side of his cheeks, which leads to this hilarious crooked grin on his happy little baby face.

He makes my heart melt and I feel a certain never-before-felt love, pride and humility when I look at him. Sometimes I still cannot believe he is actually mine/ours. Like my husband said when we left the hospital: "I feel like we just stole a baby" :) It's such a surreal experience.

As you may imagine, our life has been turned upside down in the last four weeks as I am no longer on my "adult" schedule, but am tuning into Felix's baby rhythm. 

Prior to his birth, I set a very clear intention to surrender my ideas for how everything should be and instead give myself and my family enough space to focus on tuning into understanding Felix's personal temperament, learning to meet his unique needs, as well as meeting ourselves and each other with fresh eyes as we -my husband and I- step into being parents together. 

Becoming a mom, practicing patience and focusing on being utterly present to this process is actually quite a life lesson for me. 

As a planner by nature who enjoys taking charge and likes to get things done and push projects forward, this is quite a different approach and pace for me.

My husband -probably the more chilled out one in the relationship;)- has been such wonderful support and never fails to encourage me when I need it. I am grateful that I get to go through this with someone as strong and loving as him by my side. 

As I am embarking on this new experience, I am yet again learning to find the delicate balance between my desire for structure, meeting goals, and an agenda I can influence AND the necessity for flexibility, ease, and surrender to whatever life and the people in it present to us.

Finding this balance is not only immensely valuable when stepping into motherhood, but it is essential for a fulfilled life in general. With this in mind, I want to ask you:

Where is this balance for you? Are you dancing with these two opposing components (ambition AND surrender, pushing forward AND relaxing into it), or is one taking charge or precedence in your life? Is your life too controlled and rigid so that you lack flexibility and joy? Or is your life too flexible and open that nothing ever gets done? How can you strike a better balance?

Before I leave you, here are some more pictures of our little Felix (of course, I couldn't resist sharing some more photos;)). 

striking his last muscle pose to the amusement of the nurses before we headed home from the hospital

striking his last muscle pose to the amusement of the nurses before we headed home from the hospital

Peacefully sleeping, but don't be fooled, I can scream too

Peacefully sleeping, but don't be fooled, I can scream too

his uncles are already fighting for the title of "favorite uncle" 

his uncles are already fighting for the title of "favorite uncle" 

Happy Father's day, daddy!

Happy Father's day, daddy!

Felix and mommy in the park

Felix and mommy in the park

Sunset family time 

Sunset family time 

3 weeks and still impressing the ladies with his muscles 

3 weeks and still impressing the ladies with his muscles 

best lunch date in town

best lunch date in town


Caroline Zwickson

Caroline Zwickson has a M.A. in Counseling Psychology and is a Certified Women’s Health Coach focusing on natural pregnancy preparation, hormone balance & postpartum recovery for women who want to feel amazing in their own skin and birth happy babies.

Caroline integrates functional nutrition, life & wellness coaching, as well as positive psychology to guide her clients in creating joyful lives and fertile bodies. She skillfully helps her clients adapt to new food & lifestyle habits that are grounded in establishing physical and emotional balance and health so that they can make decisions that are truly based on their goals, desires and intentions in life, especially at the onset of a new era: motherhood. Knowing how to nourish yourself in a way that promotes hormonal balance and having a close, loving relationship with yourself is the best possible preparation for pregnancy and motherhood.

Through her own experience navigating hormonal imbalances after coming off birth control in her 20s, Caroline experienced first hand that the most important factor in achieving a healthy and fun pregnancy is how women prepare their bodies and lives before they conceive. Her approach to women’s fertility and motherhood is based on positivity and the firm belief that women have an immense capacity for creation and bringing joy and beauty to the world.

Caroline has been featured in The Huffington Post, MindBodyGreen, Your Bella Life, The Beauty Bean and Cafe Truth. She has spoken at companies like Martha Stewart Living, Yelp, AMEX, Twitter, and Charity Water. You can find out more about her at www.carolinezwickson.com and you can download her FREE workbook guiding you through her top 5 tools to help you conceive naturally.